In December I noticed I was in a place again I know so well… on the edge of a burnout… Ten years ago it cost me three years to regain my life energy and it feels like once having experienced a severe burnout I’ll stay prone to exceeding my daily energy levels…
The difference is, I am more aware now… dosing my energy level is my teacher… why not fit in a kind of hibernation? So I skipped a class, went to my second home on Terschelling, had a small break ‘to reflect on my life’ (like Loretta in Moonstruck 🙂 ) and came back with the decison to slow dance in chaos for a while.
I skipped the january newsletter, I skipped writing a blog, I focused on what I tell my dancers all the time: take care of yourself, self care is the most important spiritual task one has… I have to practice what I preach… self care it is…
It’s so obviously the key to find the discipline to be a free spirit…
I sleep 10 hours a night, and in the afternoon another hour. I let go of contacts that only cost me energy, I am so much more aware of my boundaries and go for what brings energy instead of what slurps energy…
And what happens on this journey is that I connect more and more again with how precious I am, how precious my life is, how beautiful, how wonderful, how amazing it is that I breathe, that I live, that I have so many qualities to bring into this world… enveloped with self love… mildness…. warmth…
Realising all this brings back energy, tickling, aliveness, bubbles, life force… ideas coming up, plans, an urge to get back into creative action, to make dreams become alive….
Oh oh…. here I go again…
It isn’t easy… it’s a dance… slow dancing in chaos….
