{"id":6198,"date":"2019-02-28T22:46:38","date_gmt":"2019-02-28T21:46:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/?p=6198"},"modified":"2019-03-01T10:49:58","modified_gmt":"2019-03-01T09:49:58","slug":"when-your-fire-starts-to-burn-out","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/when-your-fire-starts-to-burn-out\/","title":{"rendered":"When your fire starts to burn out \u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"
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A month ago I wrote a blog about me dancing on the edge of a burn-out again; sharing that place which is so familiar to me\u2026 a place I have to pay attention to and take care of\u2026 also ten years later\u2026 still an on going dance\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I put this blog online on my website, posted it on facebook and put the first part in my newsletter with an optional link to read the rest of it\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I never\nbefore got so many responses to a blog\u2026 likes, sympathy, support, stories of\nrecognition, people giving me advise, others saying I was brave to share this\npersonal experience so openly, while being a teacher and last but not least\nmore than ever before people unsubscribed from my newsletter\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Okay, this\nwas not just a blog\u2026 this one really talked to people\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

What\nhappened to me ten years ago was that I saw a documentary on television about\nburn-out which annoyed me and made me feel rather sceptical: really\u2026 is that a\nburn-out? I know all these symptoms, I have them all, and I am still working\u2026 is\nthis what they call a burnout? These people really are overreacting\u2026 To put in\nshort: I was in my phase of denial\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Later I\nwent to the GP because of an increasing amount of physical complaints\u2026 I\nstarted my list of 25 and after five minutes my GP stopped me from talking and\nsaid to me she was ready with her diagnose: total burn-out\u2026 I had to pull the\nplug immediately, let go of all my activities\u2026 I was totally surprised and\ndisbelieving\u2026 it was just two weeks before my summer holidays\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I went home\nand called my boss – I was a coordinator, running a European exchange network at\na medical university – and told him about the GP\u2019s diagnose and that the next\ntwo weeks I would round off my work and then take a long holiday, starting with\nthree weeks and maybe prolong them with another three\u2026 My boss was very\ndetermined and made it crystal clear to me: \u201cPulling the plug, is pulling the\nplug\u2026 I don\u2019t want to see you at work, pulling the plug means NOW.\u201d<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I can\u2019t say\nthat it dawned upon me then\u2026 that only happened in the week that followed,\ndoing nothing\u2026 my heartbeat went up to almost 200 per minute, I got really ill\nand scared and panicked and the only thing that seemed to keep me together\nturned out to be laying myself down and sleep…<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I alternated\npanic and sleep for more than three months, three horrible months, a hard\nlesson that is in all my cells and that I will never forget. Sleeping, being\nup, going into panic again and back to sleep\u2026 After three months there was a\nmoment I sensed in my body I really went all the way to the bottom\u2026 I was on\nthe bottom now\u2026 I wouldn\u2019t fall any deeper\u2026 time would come to get back on my\nfeet again\u2026 <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It was in that very moment that I sensed moving would be healing and sports were out of the question, so I started dancing the 5Rhythms. Actually, they danced me while I was lying on the floor\u2026 after three classes I knew I wanted to become a teacher and that I would quit my job at university\u2026 a crazy insight considering the situation I was in, but I never gave it any doubt. It took me three years to get back on my feet, three years of baby steps\u2026 reinventing me\u2026 discovering another world\u2026 my world\u2026 my needs and my wishes\u2026 my desires, my dreams, my qualities\u2026<\/p>\n\n\n\n

This blog\nis to cheer all the burnouters out there. You know you are not alone, hope you\ncan feel it too\u2026 Take your time to rest, then turn your suffering into art, step\nby step transform this disaster into a huge chance\u2026 the chance to reinvent\nyourself, to live your life like you! <\/p>\n\n\n\n


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A month ago I wrote a blog about me dancing on the edge of a burn-out again; sharing that place which is so familiar to me\u2026 a place I have to pay attention to and take care of\u2026 also ten years later\u2026 still an on going dance\u2026 I put this blog online on my website, […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[318],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6198","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-blog"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6198","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=6198"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6198\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6209,"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6198\/revisions\/6209"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=6198"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=6198"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.soulrebel.eu\/de\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=6198"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}